I just sit and watch
seconds turn into minutes
turn into hours
turn into days
Crazy thoughts in my head
trying to make sense of chaos
everything's so loud
I can't seem to quiet my mind
or find a place of solace
there's no rest for the weary
no comfort for the brokenhearted
It's all just a nightmare
Even when I open my eyes
there's still darkness everywhere
I just keep falling and falling
There's no sense in crying
No one hears me anyway
I just sit alone and watch
as this chaos swallows me alive
I'm a cold-blooded reptile,
you said so yourself.
Every move, every look,
every thought, every action,
had an alterior motive to you.
You were just waiting
for me to fuck up.
I hated that.
Dissected every single day...
and for what?
Just so you could put the pieces
together the way you thought
they should fit?
Living in a false reality
a world that will never exist,
so what if I chose to be skeptic?
Someone has to protect me.
You thought you were so much
better than me because
you had some sort of "insight"
into the way the world
and everyone in it works.
You had solved the
"great mystery of life."
That's why everything I believed in,
my faith, was nothing more
than a joke to you.
I thought I believed in magickal fate,
puppy love at first sight,
but when every day became
just another chapter of
meaningless fights and arguments,
I had to wonder...
just what was it that I was
At first it was you,
everything about you...
so fragile and precious,
wanting so desperately to be
Lord, you knew who I was
before the heavens were formed.
You had a dream, a plan for my life
before the day I was born.
You reached down from up above
and took me in your arms.
You wrote my name in the palm of you hand
and on my heart emblazoned yours.
You've claimed me as your own,
I delight myself in you.
You've begun a new work in me
for all things have been renewed.
No more sadness fills my heart,
only songs of endless joy.
You've restored what was taken away,
Satan's plans have been destroyed.
My Savior, my Deliverer
You came and rescued me
from the destruction I was heading for.
Your love has set me free.
Though I was lost and so broken
Lord, you still new my name.
I heard you calling out to me,
"Let me make you whole again!
I want to open your eyes
to see the woman you've become in Me.
You are my creation, my daughter, my own.
I will give you joy and everlasting peace.
You will walk in purity and love
and you will see with my eyes.
If you delight yourself in Me
I'll give you you
My scales glisten in the moonlight
as I lay, patiently waiting.
Tongue flickering in and out of my mouth,
tasting the air for the slightest hint of prey.
My eyes are not fixed on a particular spot.
I just look ahead, lazily, dreamily,
as the day's warmth slowly turns into a comfortable chill.
I take in a cool, fresh breath of air
as a gentle breeze flows over my body.
I can feel the vibration of the wind
in the leaves above me, the soft grass in which I lay.
I yawn...unsheathing my fangs as I stretch out my jaws.
Twilight...so calm, so peaceful...
so inviting to others completely unaware of my presence.
I'm an apex predator, unchanged for millions of years.
Some may think me an evil creature.
I see the look of primal fear in their eyes
when they cross my path.
Everyone except children.
They seem fascinated, driven by wonder and curiosity.
I can feel something moving,
sending out waves, undulating
through the ground